Sappy Day

It has been a sappy day from the very beginning.  I have a dream. I lost my front teeth. Can't really remember the details but i felt real. No blood, no pain or what so ever and i was facing the mirror. Terbangun. Its already Subuh, around 6.30 am. Bangkit terus.

Then, while waiting for my banking matters being process, melepak di mamak cafe sipping my teh tarik while watching the news on Awani on MH370.

Perhaps couple with the hardship that i have been enduring for few mths now, the short video clip on the passanger list of MH370,  brought tears to my eyes.

My heart feels heavy. My mind is everywhere.  Merata-rata.

In an ideal business world, of course I should be able to handle the situations better - but, then again, in an ideal business world those situations do not exist at all.

Sigh.

Try hard to keep myself together.

Stumble upon this beautiful video, explaining on Musibah. Good or bad.. everything is with permission of Allah. MashaAllah.

Kontang sudah, Muncul Hujan

This is how bad it was last week. Its like going thru rubber estate where the leaves starts falling down non stop. Looks like the foreign worker has lots of work to be done.

These days, my patience was tested many many times. I'm turning into blue monster easily. Then i realised a short walk under the humid weather is not bad at all. So, the everyday walk to the bank or food court plus a cup of teh tarik once a while give me a window time to breathe. Having my lunch in food court instead of going out saves me a lot of time and energy too, despite the boring food. 

Dealing with human being in these trying times somehow has given me another perspective and view. About myself and other people. Its true when they said - You Can Tell the Size of a Man by the Size Of Things that Bother him. If petty things really bother you, consumed most your time, drained your energy and perhaps the thing you talk about everday.... be worried, be extremely worried. It shows the real you, who you are.

Now the rain has come, Alhamdulillah. 

I have a Dream

that i was on holiday somewhere in an island far far away. It was hot and sunny but the sound of waving ocean calms me down. Nothing much happened as i was just lepaking. Hmmm...  with the three months diet plan, cash is tight. But I really, badly need to go somewhere.

I envy those who can really lepak in an island for many days. I think I can't but why not kan I challenge myself. Perhaps island in Thailand is cheaper than here in Malaysia. I can stretch my budget for a longer period. As at to date, I only took one day of annual leave.... so spending one week for a beach holidays seems doable. 

 Oh well... meanwhile i can just continue surfing the net :(

DDP: am I on TRACK?

HEALTHDiet

Have been using for Fitbit for one month now and below is the result so far..

1. Steps

Highest Steps

Lowest Steps

2. Distance

Longest distance

3. Calories Burned

nothing to shout

Overview


4. Sleep

Tidur.. memang efficient :D

 Overview

 Not an impressive result. Thought that if i achieved 10k steps, I must be active :( Oh...

Madness March

1. turning into MONSTER

Work seems playing with my patience and slowly i can feel myself turning into monster. Pitty to my team member. They have to endure with my unpleasant attitude of not having the patience.  All i know is i'm about to hit the wall. Sigh..

2. MOTIVATION... what?

I have difficulties to wake up in the morning. I don't feel like going to the office. It feels like dragging my feet while my mind is elsewhere. Dolce Gusto coffee in the morning doesn't give me the morning fix or booster anymore. Being the first to enter the room and the last to close the door feels like a very looooong day.

3. I'm MUMBLINGs

because I'm Too Tired To Talk. So i keep it to myself. Talking is Tiring.  Some people release their stress by talking. Not me. I'm too tired to talk until to a point that i expect the people around me and the people i work with can understand me without explaining, sharing and giving instruction. Hah! Tak masuk akal kan. 

4. MISSING diver and MH370

On Friday night sampai kampung, lil brother shared a story about Japanese diver missing in Bali. She has been rescued after 3 days in the open sea drifted towards Lombok. Reminded me of my own story. 

Will not further elaborate on this as i'm not the expert. I feel grateful to be found and saved after seven hours drifting in the open sea. At that moment, seven hours felt like seven thousand years. I can't imagine how it feels.. after five days of searching with 39 aircraft and 42 ships.  Lets continue sending our doa. 

Watching this video brings tears to my heart.

"Malaysian Airlines Flight MH370, the air traffic control radar hopes to see you.

If you can hear this, please maintain your current altitude, and proceed directly to your destination.

Know that we have applied for a direct route for you, and other kind-hearted flights will accommodate you by giving way to you. Everyone is willing to let you be the first to land. 

The weather for your route is currently sunny and cloudless, with the air temperature at your destination Beijing being 5 degrees, a little cold, so dress warmly when disembarking.

Remember to hug the friends and family who have come to pick you up, because they love you very much. Good day."

Sudah hampir 3 pagi. Lelap lah wahai mata.

Killing me Softly

with her words...

On Strict Diet.. Ayuh

I need to create distraction. A distraction that can divert my attention from travel. Gosh... I have an expensive hobby.. err more than hobby actually, perhaps lifestyle. So, what is the distraction plan? Of course something that worth it :D

The key ingredient to my distraction plan is determination.. huh sounds challenging kan.. MEMANG PUN. I'm on three month strict DIET.

Before I started the distraction plan, i had found few tools that should help me with the Distraction Diet Plan - DDP. This to ensure I achieve the end result KPI.

1. CASHdiet

I have work out a stretching budget and divided into few categories (living, saving, happy hour,etc). I installed expenses tracking apps to keep up with my cash movement in and out. To achieve this  is not an easy task. Banyak sungguh dugaan. One of the strategy is to avoid myself from going to the mall. Kalau pergi mall.. mesti ada saja nak beli. Then to stop buying online... which is more challenging. Adoi. Rasa nak click aje buy button tu kan.

2. HEALTHdiet

I bought Fitbit Flex to track my daily calories consumption, exercise/steps taken and sleep logged. The device keep me informed about my activity levels and makes me motivated to  get moving. The truth is i'm struggling to clock in 10,000 steps a day. Huh. To date, my average sleep pattern is 6h time asleep, 8 times awakened a day and 10k steps.

3. SOCIALdiet

This means that every weekend I must plan something relevant dgn aktiviti bersosial and engagement. So far on track. Met mack yea, mami. SY & SH and go back to hometown at lease once a mth. Tomorrow, swimming day with the boys and girl.

4. LEARNdiet

Read books and articles to increase knowledge and motivation. I have subscribed to few English grammar channel on youtube to improve my writing skill. Be selective, Less TV especially all those drama yang buang masa je so I can have more time for reading. BTW, I do watch Oh My English tho :p

5. SOULdiet

STOP and take time to reflect and recite Al-Quran. Pray and ask for good things. Talk less about people. Words can hurt (and heal). Focus on responsibility to deliver work. Always think and act as a bigger person. Put company as priority not my own personal disappointment or agenda. Ask around, gossiping and bitching are a waste of time. If word on the street is bad on me, time to do self reflection. THINK before speak, Saying things without Thinking makes me stupid  unwise.

Conclusion

Three months plan already started and I hope by then I had made my life more useful and meaningful. No 4 and 5 a bit difficult to quantify, but if i'm willing to be honest, I will knew the answer kan. Let make this works. All the best!

Go away.. please

This is my sleep chart for yesterday.  See how distracted and restless i am. Been struggling to get my peaceful sleep.

I can sense that you will be visiting me again tonight when i'm sleep. Oh no. Most of the time you kiss my shoulder, bite my hand and leg. You will  secretly whisper into my ears. Singing me a song from hitz top 40 chart. Hmmm how thoughtful you are kan.

But please go away. I need my beauty sleep. I beg you not to visit me today. But since you have been stubborn too, i have no choice. I have to find the solution. I have to ask for help. Erk.. but at this time of late night, how la. I need to make use what ever i have now.

Thank you Mr Mosi-guard. Even i hate how you smell, you will accompany me in bed. I only have you for now :)

Go away you naughty Mosquitoes!

Nite all.

Garbage.. what??

These days, talking seems tiring. I feel tired to talk. I felt my days wasted if fill up with talking than getting things done. Do talking makes us better? Err.. i have doubt about that. I have so many things unsolved and talking definitely not helping. Thinking through and make decision will help.

Knowing what it meant by employee, i've submitted a recommendation even though i knew that this will stir some unpleasant consequences. After almost one hour conversation, the word 'GARBAGE' and 'Doesn't Make Sense' was the key items and highlight of the day.

Hahaha.. need to laugh on difficult situations. Too many difficult days, so mari kita belajar buat lawak.

I'm trying to get my work done as i live day to day basis. Things that can wait, will be save as LATER. Umpama kais pagi makan pagi. If i think too much, i might collapse.

I'm on power saving mode. Talk less, Work more. 

Happy working :)

The Journey: Classy Casablanca, Part 3

Oh.. sambung balik trip yg lepas (pit stop kat down under Perth sekejap).. now back to Africa and enough of Fes, now we are heading to Casablanca. Don't you think that the word Casablanca sounds classy and sexy? I do.

The city is well known due to Casablanca the classic movie made in 1942 whereby in actual fact it does not correlate at all with the city. It was flimed inside the studio and not in Casablanca, Morocco. So why on earth this city deserved to be well known when nothing much can be offered?

One US expat lady has open a cafe similar to the movie - Rick's cafe even though it's not real, just to fool the tourist. Hmmm.. talking about opportunity kan.. smart move.

We went to the famous Hassan II mosque heard from the local that  $750 millions needed to built the Mosque was financed directly from Moroccans themselves.

The Mosque completed in 1993, became Morocco’s largest, and the 7th largest in the whole world. Its minaret, at 210 meters high, is the highest in the world. 

Heading back to the city to catch a long train ride to Marrakech. Had fried chicken and rice for lunch. Yummy.

To be continue in part iv.. Marrakech :)