sigh....

saya tidak akan apa-apa, kalau saya tidak mencari apa yang tiada

Terkenang...

Hari ni semasa drive pulang ke rumah, hati saya terdetik… bagaimana agaknya hidup saya jika bapak masih ada…. Apakah dan bagaimanakah perasaannya, Tidak tercapai perasaan saya untuk menggambarkannya. Sudah terlalu lama bapak pergi. Jadi saya tidak tahu bagaimana keadaanya. Bagaimana keadaannya hari ini kalau bapak masih ada.

Emak masih tidur dengan lampu terangnya. Emak masih tidur dengan radio terpasang kuat. Emak masih simpan baju lama bapak.

What would I do if I could spend one more day with him?

Saya akan meminta bapak untuk membawa kami pusing satu bandar menaiki motor roda empat kesayangannya. Waktu itu saya masih kecil dan motor tu digunakan untuk mengangkut barang di kedai dan juga mengangkut emak, abang, gina dan saya. Maklumlah waktu tu masa susah. Bapak tak mampu nak beli kereta. Jadi motor tu lah jadi kenderaan rasmi. Seronoknya sebab bila bapak bawa laju.. rasa macam boleh terbang je. Hebat tu. Tapi kena pegang palang tepi kuat-kuat. Nanti tak stabil, especially bila belok. Emak tak lah duduk dalam tong empat segi tu. Emak biasanya bonceng kat belakang bapak.

“No matter what happen in my life… I’m gonna be okay”…Saya mahu bapak mengatakannya kepada saya.

While You're Sleeping

Jack : I just wanted to give you this before all the presents started to pile up. I was droppin' off some furniture in Little Italy. I look in a window, and...
Lucy : [it's a snow globe of Florence] Florence.
Jack : Florence.
Lucy : Thank you. It's really beautiful.
Jack : And I wanted to say that I think that Peter... is a very lucky guy.
Lucy : Thank you.
Jack : I had to say that because you're gonna be my sister-in-law.
Lucy : Ha, ha, ha, ha. Well, I guess we'll be seeing a lot of each other then.
Jack : I better get goin'.
Lucy : Yeah. Hey, Jack. Jack!
Jack : [turns around] Yeah?
Lucy : Can you give me any reason why I shouldn't marry your brother?
Jack : Oh... I can't.

Jerry : What's this?
Lucy : A wedding invitation.
Jerry : Now wait a second! This is YOUR wedding invitation.
Lucy : So?
Jerry : Whom are we marrying?
Lucy : [turns over invitation] Peter Callaghan.
Jerry : The coma guy? Are you insane?
Lucy : Yes, Jerry. I'm insane. I go to work and I sit in a box like a veal. I work every holiday, I go home to a cat and now a rich and handsome man has asked me to marry him and I've said yes. OK. That makes me a total raving lunatic.
Jerry : The wedding is tomorrow!
Lucy : I know it's tomorrow Jerry, but you know what? I even wish it were yesterday. Because that would mean that TODAY I would be on my honeymoon, that I would finally have a stamp in my passport, and that it would say ‘Italy’ on it.
Jerry : What happened to the other guy?
Lucy : He didn't want me.

....I still love this movie...

Sleep Don't Weep

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love

Your face is all wet and your day was rough

So do what you must do to find yourself

Wear another shoe, paint my shelves

Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong

I think I found a place where I...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love

Your face it's all wet 'cause our days were rough

So do what you must do to fill that hole

Wear another shoe to comfort the soul

Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong

I think I found a place where I feel I will...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love

My face it's all wet 'cause my day was rough

So do what you must do to find yourself

Wear another shoe, paint my shelves

Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong

I hope I find a place where I feel I belong

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love

My face is all wet 'cause my day was rough

-Damien Rice-

rest your eyes

rest your eyes....tommorow is a new day

Meredakan Hati

Beberapa hari lalu Aiman (my nephew) dan saya sedang sama-sama belajar buku sekolahnya. Pelajaran hari itu ialah rukun iman. Saya terkesan kepada rukun iman yang keenam iaitu beriman kepada Qada’ dan Qadar. Ia mengulang ingat pada diri bahawa adanya Kuasa yang lebih dan amat hebat yang membuat KETETAPAN. Saya hanya berusaha, berdoa dan mengharap yang terbaik. Bukan saya yang menentukannya.

kuala medang homestay

Last Saturday, I've visited a homestay at Kuala Medang, about 51 km from Kuala Lipis town. It took us four hours to reached Kampung Kuala Medang. It was hot, i would say very hot and sunny day. I'm a bit disappointed because the rafting activity has been cancelled. This is the main reason i join this trip. However, the delicious food and the humble love from my foster mother, mak cik aishah makes it all worth it :-)

DAY 1 : HOT AND SUNNY DAY

the map

sungai jerai kecil

salak tree


the making of 'gasing'




handicraft


lemang








the making of emping

DAY 2 : FAREWELL

bahulu

the 100 % original turmeric powder
10kg of fresh turmeric = 1.2kg turmeric powder

my new favorite dish... sambal belimbing