Taking ownership

This is funny.

It’s like going one circle.

When I asked x-men for overall documentation, x-men requested me to request from captain america. When I asked captain america, he told me that he only in charge of america, not for all other country. Then I have to go back to x-men. x-men pula kata he would like captain america to take charged as he has other things to focus on. So i go back to captain america. Captain america told me he didn’t know the whole requirement and deliverable. He cannot provide me with the costing. So, siapa nak buat? Siapa nak take charge? Perhaps, it is very very hard to communicate among super hero, i guess.

Same goes to incorrect and unapproved documentation and travelling. Dia kata sana, sana tak mengaku. Sana kata sini. Sini pula tak tahu. Hmmmm. Entahlah.

This is just an example of so many funny things that had happened. Funny isn’t it?

 

Saya teringat kata nasihat orang lama: 

Beri seorang seekor ikan anda akan memberinya makanan untuk sehari. Ajar dia cara menangkap ikan, anda akan memberi dia makan seumur hidupnya.

Kali ini, saya beri lagi ikan, saya ajar juga cara menangkap ikan. Saya tolong beri justification. Next time terpulanglah. Saya percaya anda semua hebat. Pandai-pandai bawa diri ya :)

Thank you.. for reminding me

Whoever created this video – Awesome. Super Great job.

It's enough

Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength - Anynomous

I think i should give up.

Looking back at my day today, i think i'm the one that should learn. I should learn how to give up. Keep on explaining the same thing over and over again, trying to make other people understand - doesn't work. I should just stop. I should value my time and energy.

Someone told me that i should give up looong time ago. Seeing me trying very hard to make this person see and understand the reason behind was wasted and useless kind of act.

I was trying very hard out of care and responsibility. Partly, i thought there was hope and willingness. Willingness for that person to listen, to understand and to learn. Unfortunetely i'm wrong. Probably I'm not influential and powerful enough. Besides, I'm nobody. Not that person boss (of course).

I should give up since everyone else would understand. I don't have the true strength. Afterall i have tried my best. It's enough.

Insanity is...

Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different result - Albert Einstein

And that is one of the things I fear. Getting The SAME Result.

It’s been years we get the same result. Don’t you think it’s time again for us to STOP --> LOOK --> CHOOSE --> CHANGE. By now I think, we somehow have an idea what’s working what’s not working. We can start small but consistent. 

Please don’t be fixed. Please don’t be rigid. Please don’t be difficult. All we need is to change the way we think and our perspective. 

Sometimes when people being hard on you – there must be a reason. Please think through. Think again. Why people being hard on you. Perhaps not because they hate you, not because they have secret agenda and not because they want to sabotage you.

Maybe it’s simply because they want you to learn, to change and to transform --> to be better you and to achieve different result. 

Oh, please see this. Please change your glasses. Please listen. I beg you. Please. We need to have different result. Stop giving same reason and same excuses. Help me.

When people being hard – Listen. Think deeper. Or else – we only succeed in getting the SAME results. Isn't that scary?

Looking for an Answer

Hello

Being difficult

Percayalah. Saya dan kamu sama sahaja.

Ada kerja yang saya suka buat, ada kerja yang saya tak suka buat. Kalau boleh saya hanya mahu buat kerja yang saya suka.

Kadang-kadang saya mahu datang lambat. Kadang-kadang saya mahu rehat lama. Kadang-kadang saya perlu settle kan personal stuff di waktu office.

Saya mahu company faham saya. Company ikut cara saya. Saya tidak mahu ikut polisi dan prosedur. Saya mahu buat kerja cara saya.

Kalau boleh saya mahu pilih boss saya. Saya mahu pilih staff saya. Saya mahu pilih kawan-kawan saya.

Saya mahu working environment seperti google, saya mahu gaji yang hebat dan saya mahu company beri staff benefit yang lumayan.

Hakikatnya, kita tidak boleh dapat semua yang kita mahukan. Saya perlu lakukan kerja-kerja yang saya tidak mahu. Saya perlu patuh kepada polisi dan peraturan. Kepentingan syarikat adalah keutamaan, bukan apa yang saya mahu. Saya perlu bekerjasama dengan boss-boss saya, staff saya dan rakan-rakan. 

Saya belajar menerima dan mematuhi. Saya cuba adapt. Percayalah, hari saya juga sukar. Setiap hari saya struggle.

Apa kata kamu juga cuba. Please don't be difficult. Tolong mudah kan hari saya. After all, saya dan kamu  sama - si pencari rezeki.

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Not Daddy's Little Girl...

I never was.

I didn’t have the best relationship with my late dad. It was more kind of an obligation as a daughter. And now talking about him is still difficult and heavy. So, I’m not going to write a long post about him.

Do i miss him now? Ocasionally.. but usually I will stop myself. Not all of us have perfect families and I have made peace with my feelings for him. Tuhan tu kan Maha Adil. One thing for sure, i’m thankful. He taught me how to be strong.

For those celebrating Father’s Day - I envy you :)

Basikal Tua

Macam-Macam

1. Banyak sungguh movie super hero. Saya pergi juga menonton X Men - First Class dan Super 8, walaupun tidak berapa minat dengan cerita sebegini. Trailer untuk Captain America juga di tayangkan. Ada apa dengan Super Hero? 

2. Saya mahu membeli birthday present. Saya masih berfikir-fikir mahu beli size L atau XL. Tapi yang membuatkan saya rasa tidak ok adalah statement si adik salesman. Saya merasakan dia perlu belajar, belajar common courtesy - how to treat strangers considerately. Ada ke patut ayat yg terkeluar dari mulutnya -  besarnya husband kakak. Aikkk..? Memanglah bukan husband saya atau sesiapa, tapinya.... alahai. Terus saya tak jadi beli. Kalau boleh semua org mahu jadi bratt pit atau angelina jolie dik oiii.

3. Batuk datang lagi. Letih jadinya. Alangkah bagus jika ada bath tub di rumah. Boleh saya melegakan diri saya didalam air panas. Tapi tak apalah. Shower air panas pun ok kan daripada kena mandi air perigi / kolah yang sejuk gila :)

4. Saya suka dengan kata-kata Imam Ghazali:

"Kalau besar yang di tuntut dan mulia yang dicari, nescaya banyaklah kepayahan dan kesusahan melaluinya, panjang jalannya dan banyak rintangannya"

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Give me some space to...

whine.

1. Nenek sangat sakit. High risk. She may survive another six months, worst case - hari raya this year. She has been smoking since 11 years old and now her age is 79. Sengsara melihat nya sengsara. Dia tidak tahu dia ada lung cancer, stage 4. Tiada apa boleh dilakukan lagi. Langkah terakhir adalah radiotherapy. Sepuluh minit sehari untuk lima hari berturut-turut. Setelah itu dia boleh pulang.

2. My body aching. Every inch of it. Fell off @ bathroom. Sakit gila. Now i know kenapa jatuh di bilik air sangat merbahaya. Sakit sendi dan tulang. Semuanya terasa sakit. Jumpa tabib cina. Dua kali kena tai- chi, kraaappp.. berbunyi semua tulang. Katanya tiada yang serius. Harap begitulah.

3. Banjir kilat di kampung. Habis semua barang tenggelam. Banyak tidak dapat diselamatkan kerana menjaga nenek di melaka. Kereta, computer, motor, mesin basuh, peti ais..etc tenggelam termasuk lah barang-barang kedai. Kesian mak dan adik-adik :(

Semua dapat hadiah. Ok. That's it. End.

"Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours” - Swedish Proverb

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