Charging my Hope

So many things  had happened and I miss blogging. I have been spending most of my time at the office. How cool is that kan :p  Not a day of leave taken this month and most all of my weekends I spent it for work. Such dedication, such passion, such... zzZzZz...

I need to jot down few things that had happened this month as a note to myself.

1. My so called mentor passed away. He has been sick for quite some times. I'm glad our path crossed and I'm honoured knowing someone like you. A great leader with a beautiful heart. Always giving, always sharing. Thank you sir. You have shown me that no act of kindness is ever wasted. Al-Fatehah.

2. One of my bff in trouble. Not her fault but as a family, you need to handle the shit. I think about it so hard as what she had requested is not an easy thing to be done. Make a risky decision and decided to lend her my hand. I just cant let her down and do nothing, if something bad happen to her and the family, I'm sure I will regret it. I understand the risk and I knew this is my best effort therefore the end result - saya redha. Saya mahu jadi kawan semasa susah.

3. Another bff in a difficult situation. Her baby sick, coma for more than three weeks now. Visiting her in the hospital, my heart bleed. I respect her - for being strong and not giving up hope. Always there for her baby. and keep on trying. There was a moment that I felt like I wanted to cry, but I did not. She told me that the only best friend she has now is her baby. I understand her completely.

4. Charity oh Charity. Don't be a giver when you are in doubt. Be a giver when you know everything will be a complete free of charge. No expectation, no terms and conditions and zero return. With super duper heavy heart, I visited their home of love. I requested them to return back. Without hesitation, without excuses, they have agreed - even though they do not have any clue how to make it happen. I learned my lesson the hard way. Partly it was my mistake too.

5. Ex-officemate passed away. Al - Fatehah.

6. When both of parents are sick, I know its tough. Double it. Hang in there my friend. Be strong. Somehow it reminds me of the old saying “This too shall pass” - Every situation is temporary, good or bad.

7. A feedback from an old friend during an early morning breakfast : I'm heartless. Having so much things on my shoulder turns me into robot. I just want to get things done. Anything in between - doesn't really matters. It's the result that counts.

I'm not Heartless. I just learned to use my Heart Less. - anynomous

Maybe its Black April. Good Night. Sleep well. Tomorrow, we shall say Good Morning to Ms May :)

Home Sweet Home

I really missed the comfort of home. I'm actually here not going anywhere. Not on travelling mode. But I missed home. Rindu untuk melepak di rumah sendiri. Kelakar kan.

Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, and grow old wanting to get back to - John Ed Pearce

It has been many many weeks of  looong day at work. Be it weekdays or weekend. Bermula dengan year end closing, business plan, investor meeting, VTF dan audit. April akan diteruskan dengan post audit dan tax. Terus-terusan. Terasa comot, terasa lusuh sangat. Kadang-kadang terfikir bila melihat mereka yang datang kerja cantik manis, bersolek muka dan berdandan rambut bagai. Saya tidak punya masa untuk membelek diri. Saya lebih hargai masa untuk tidur. These days dapat tidur lima jam pun kira cukup bagus.

Dalam pada sibuk-sibuk, Alhamdullillah. Dapat juga curi masa spent time utk family wedding dan travel sebentar ke Osaka/Kyoto, Saigon dan Krabi. Dan hari ini dapat juga spent masa di rumah. Lebih baik bersyukur dari complain kan.

Saya seperti berkejar-kejaran dengan masa. Mungkin ia mengajar saya untuk lebih menghargai masa. Esok - sudah pun Isnin. I just need to be calm and carry on.

Welcoming the new add on

Mom and sis in law standing and the rest of the Amar-ian at the front row:)