Fifty and...

 kita chill chill sahaja 😊

 

I'm Kind Person and still..

 I can really relate with this..

Introvert.. maybe not : Ambivert

Thought that I had a quiet birthday.. and just quietly start my work as usual today. But expect the unexpected..

 

 

Thank you for the time and effort despite the busyness 💝. It’s good to slow down and enjoy each other’s company.

Si Yin and Yang

panas ke hujan?

 

Interesting situation at my balcony - one side hot and sunny, one side gloomy. 

I come across few impactful keywords. Maybe i should start a list

1. No One Owes You Anything vice versa I don't owe anyone explanation
   
   
2. If It Is To Be, It's Up To Me = I'm the source of creation
   
   
3. Self-Full vs Self-Sufficient vs Self-Efficacy
   
   
4. Hold Space means Care
   
   
5. Add Value means Meaningful Contribution
   
   
6. Solitude not Loneliness 
   
   
7.  I'm a Fighter not a Victim
   
   
8.  Set Boundaries to protect my time, attention, energy and space
   
   

Quiet birthday this year. Not traveling and staying home. IC pun hilang.. belum buat baru. Waiting for miracle to happen. Kot ada insan budiman yang jumpa pulang kan 😅

Treat myself with a spa.. 

Semoga sentiasa menjadi yang lebih baik.

On Grief

Grief Is Like Butter 

by Ruth Chan

I watched a movie - Rabbit Hole. A movie about grief. 

Becca: Does it ever go away?
Nat: No, I don’t think it does. Not for me, it hasn’t – has gone on for eleven years. But it changes though.
Becca: How?
Nat: I don’t know. . .the weight of it, I guess. At some point, it becomes bearable. It turns into something that you can crawl out from under and... carry around like a brick in your pocket. And you... you even forget it, for a while. But then you reach in for whatever reason and – there it is. Oh right, that. Which could be awful – not all the time. It’s kinda... not that you’d like it exactly, but it’s what you’ve got instead of your son. So, you carry it around. And uh... it doesn’t go away. Which is... 
Becca: Which is what?
Nat: Fine, actually.

I think you can relate if only you have lost someone that means the world to you. It is a journey to be able to reach at the "okay" or "fine' stage.. and its true.. it doesn't go away, I carry it around but the weight changes with time. I'm trying to make peace with it.

Happy Ramadhan Kareem.

Meraikan Kelahiran @Maldives

I have been to Maldives few times in Oct but never on my birth date. This year, i decided to revisit Kandooma after 11 years (in 2011). 

It was my first time setting up my eyes in this beautiful country. Since then, i have been to Maldives yearly except 2015, 2020 and 2021. This is my first overseas trip after the border reopen due to covid-19. 

It was the resort effort to prepare all the surprises. No body plan it. I went for snorkeling trip in the morning, then kayak and snnorkle again in front of the room (i saw lion fish hiding between the rock).

Entered the room and wallaaa.. the bed was nicely prepared with birthday wishes. After resting, walk around the resort area twice and drop by the restaurant. 

As my friend contemplating what to eat, the staff said they actually already prepared nice table for us and to my surprise a birthday cake with the staff singing birthday song to celebrate.

 Hmmm nice kan. ❤

Tragedy

 Hello.

When tragedy happens, your world STOP. Your brain works extra hard processing information and your body shutting down. You may have panic attack, difficulty to breathe and becoming weak. 

Due to the tragedy, you are now in the trauma ward. Trying to survive the tragedy. The recovery depends on the severity of the damage. 

Of tragedy and trauma, you realised that you will never be the same person again. You're broken and no matter how much you try to normalised your world - it will never be the same.

Not saying you become better or become worst. No.

Just that you never be the same person again.

Aren't we are all a work in progress.

January Me

Sinking... again

Demi Masa...

Sesungguhnya kita berada dalam kerugian

Hi.

More and more I understand what it means. Selalu juga rasa stress. Sebab merasakan jika ambil masa untuk bersembang, berehat, menonton tv atau tidur, masa terbuang dengan sia-sia.

Dah lama rasa macam ni.

Terasa perlu tulis supaya ia keluar dari sistem.

Contoh:

Bila bercakap/bersembang, nanti emosi. Bila emosi, buang energy. End up rasa penat, tapi tak ke mana.

RUGI.

Rugi masa, Rugi tenaga, Sebab masih berada di position yang sama.

Need Motivation??

Straight to the point.