Things That Matter

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

A fabulous quote by Martin Luther King Jr.

I found myself quietly and slowly letting go of things that matter to me. How can that be good? Especially for things that I really care.

Being true to myself and do what feels right for me are not an easy task. How true I can be to myself when I have so many things that cling on me.

To be free, I need to learn to detach myself. I have to learn not to care and worry too much about the outcome. Work, family, friends, status, image, perception, money and many more should not determine who I really am. Be it with people expectations.

I found this over the net;

“One evening, bored with my moping, my friend tuned in the local alternative radio station, which happened to be broadcasting Ram Dass. He was telling a famous anecdote about the way you catch a monkey in India. You drop a handful of nuts into a jar with a small opening, he explained. The monkey puts his hand into the jar, grabs the nuts, and then finds that he can't get his fist out through the opening. If the monkey would just let go of the nuts, he could escape. But he won't."

If I refer back to the quote, does that mean my life begins to end soon?

good in every day

Fruits?

is that true? :D

2 Steps Away

another super awesome dance

song: Patti LaBelle
dancers : Legacy & Kathryn

Gravity

goosebumps... every single time i watch it

Song : Sara Bareilles
Dancer : Kayla and Kupono

Valentine's Day - the movie

I love this movie. Why? Its straight forward. About people denying love, looking for love, tired love, new love, can't find love, cheating love and forever in love and Its full of very well known actors and actresses.

I don’t really remember how many story lines are there in the movie but there’s no boring moment. The movie moved fast. I like Julia Roberts with her motherly love story and Ashton Kutcher/Jenifer Garner relationship story.

i LOVE doing household chores... NOT!

Its been two days of doing the house chores… and finally I’m done. Yahooo. From cleaning and scrubbing bathroom tiles, toilet and sink, vacuuming and mopping the floor , doing the dishes, laundry and folding laundry, changing bed sheet, cleaning up the window and lastly the grocery shopping. Adoi penatnya. I have one day left… Then its Monday. Ohhh. I have not iron my shirt yet.

I actually spent more than 4 hours at sunway today… so tak boleh lah nak merungut lebih lebih :D

Give Up

I hate this word – give up. It’s like I’m a looser.

But then, wait

Me- contemplating the word give up again.

It can be deeper than that.

It means letting go. Surrender to the unknown. Being powerless.

So, if I give up everything I have now, would I be happy?

I don’t know.

But the smell of giving up is too close.

If I give up, am I a looser or am I open up to the possibilities?

The attachment makes it harder to let it go and it’s eating me up every single day.

I need a REASON. The one REASON to give up and the one REASON to start over again.

Or am I finding excuses to justify?

Time is running.

End.

excerpt from ‘the curious case of benjamin button’:

“I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. “

Should i? before its too late

I'm in Hanoi, Honk your Horn!

There’s one unique thing about Hanoi.

Motorbikes, bicycles and cars – they communicate in one international language called horn honking. Drivers constantly honking their horn, (I guess every 8 seconds) to fight for road space. They move like ants in all directions, communicating with each other through the horn.

Honking the horn doesn't mean a driver is angry (I think) otherwise this city is full of angry people :), it's a polite courtesy to let everyone know they're coming through and to get out of the way in order to avoid an accident. After awhile somehow I get used to it.

Trying to cross the road is an experience. There are no gaps. The only way to is to walk slowly (don’t run), relax and hope for the best. Somehow the traffic will go around you.
Being so called adventurous, I’ve prepared myself with map courtesy of Google. Surprisingly, walking around Hanoi is quite easy. The old Quarter has everything- silk, shoes, shirts and all sort of souvenir. Shopping around are satisfying. I can ask price without any obligation to purchase. They communicate pleasantly. They accept both currency – Dong and USD.

Journey to Halong Bay was very tiring. Six hours journey was like forever. Should extend my stay and stay one night on the boat :) But it’s worth it. Wish I have extra canggih camera to take the photos :)



Food - not a problem. Found halal restaurant own by malaysian. This -photo below are their own version of mamak stall.



I need another vacation :-D

The Holiday

excerpt from the movie

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you, and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy.

And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.

And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new, and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.