Promise?

Me: Doc, my heart hurts

Doctor: If you wait long enough, it passes

Me: Promise?

Doctor: I Promise

Painkiller Please

I need painkiller for my heart

far far away

View from my kitchen window - klcc and menara kl - using camera phone

p/s azreena.... bila nak duduk sama ni....

Of Lifestyle and Flexibility

I always believed in keeping real. Being realistic with what I have and what I want. Maybe the way I grew up and the job that I hold now makes me the way I am today.

I used to think that how I appear to other people doesn’t really matter…I mean in terms of how I physically appear to people. I've never cared whether I appeared to have money, to other people. It's a personal matter.

I believed what’s inside us matter - for the person that I am and for the person I want to be. My being, interest and passion – are the value that counts. Not for what I wear, what car I drive or how big my house is.

But maybe it does matter.

These days, to earn respect you need to have big car (or bigger car), big house and branded items and clothes. The world judged you from your appearance and that’s all they need to know. The cover is a very important than the book. They didn’t care how wise you are in managing your money… they didn’t care how much your debt is or how many credit card you have in order to survive your monthly expenses.

Ohhh……. This is what we called life with a style = LIFESTYLE

As for now, let me be different. I’m happy with my own mr kancil and my new apartment. Let me enjoy the flexibility of my income and avoid any headache at the end of the month. I’m okay to live my life with No Style. I want fulfill my other dreams before I purchase a bigger car. Yes... I will change my car. But I won’t spend too much on it.

It’s depreciate every year :-)

Descending @ Tioman

Living In Denial

Am I living in the land of denial?

Answer:

YES

Why?

Answer:

Because in the land of denial life seems nearly perfect. I have what I want and what I need. Life is easy with abundance of joy and happiness. It’s like having a dream that I don’t want to wake up. Enjoying every moment of it and wishing that it’s more than just a moment of my life. Unfortunately, Mr. Reality is at my side to wake me up.

I don’t know how long I want to be in this land.

To walk out from this land means to face the truth. Facing things I don’t want to face. The truth is too hard to handle. Hurt, pain, anger, fear, disappointment and the overwhelming sadness.


knock..knock

Whose there?

Mr. Reality

end

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

have you heard of this song? its in my favourite list...
__________________

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

Ooh don't misunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
I don’t know why...... why

by James Morrison

Walk Away....

The other day, when I was in the meeting with our angel investor, one question struck my head. My boss had been asked by our angel, repeatedly few times
'What is your bottom line... what is your bottom line when you know it’s the time to walk away without the deal? I want you to give me your bottom line price? Give me your number?

I asked the same question to myself. What is my bottom line? What is my bottom line to know it’s the time to walk away from any so called relationship.

It’s time to walk away when the other party gives me some sign that he doesn’t want to be with me and in my world… and why in the world should I be with someone who doesn't want to be with me.

When deep deep down inside I know it’s the right thing to do. That's my bottom line.

Luak Bay Esplanade, Miri

Falling

a successfull marriage requires falling in love many times,

always with the same person

-Anonymous-