Back in New Zealand through Brisbane

This trip was not in the plan. I was hoping that my visa to Uzbekistan will be approved few days before Syawal. Unfortunately, not. Perhaps no travel during Ramadan heh!   

So the so called plan B trip, is on. Was putting so much effort on finding my tix. I was like trying to every possible route to get the cheapest and at the same time covering 2 countries (if possible). Since the decision making was in Aug, the flight tix price was no longer cheap.

While searching,  I can't help to hope if there is any error on the airline's website so that I would be able to buy at super cheap price or if I have siblings working with airlines so that I get family price... hmmmm... berangan- angan mat jenin je la heh.

Finally,  purchased my tix which was quite ambitious. Haha. It was my longest journey so far: KUL - SIN - BNE - AKL - SIN - KUL. 

Breathe in, Breathe out

Exhale... Inhale.

I was about to explode, like a time bomb.  Luckily,  I'm able to keep my mouth shut. Or else I will be in trouble. Perhaps my pair of eyes are really different. I always see things differently. My pair of eyes are now tired. Need to have a fresh view.

The baggage becomes heavier. A lot more. I don't want to carry this. If I were to climb a mountain,  surely I left the baggage one by one along the way until in the end, I do not know what's left.

Oh well, I'm getting old. No more happy hour in my dictionary.

On the other note, can't wait for my next travel. I love my work so much that I need to create a distance from office. Pffftttt.

The first part will be solo, I like. Being alone is what I need now. Enjoying the luxury of freedom, trusting stranger and get lost. I guess I'm not a people person. Being social is not my thing. That's why I can't relate myself into it.

Perhaps I need to change, to be 2.0.

Luxury Items

List of luxury items that I can think off and not in order
- time
- money
- health
- accumulated value of pahala
- doa
- knowledge
- opportunity
- family
- friendship
- travel
- forgiveness
- excellent English, spoken and written
- excellent pronunciation, tajwid and understanding while reciting Al-Quran
- my space
- sleep
- sleeping on my own bed (yes... nothing beats my own bed)
- and many more

Reason for this post...if only...

Merdeka Celebration

with my love ones.

Five days old of lil boy - welcome to the world, love. It has been a blessing Syawal having you with us. Its been a while for us not to hear lil baby crying. We have so much love to give you, lil boy :)

Puteri turns 10, entering the double digit. Cheeky and playful as always. Adoring cats so much and never forget to mail me raya card every year. My doa is that you always makes your parents proud ya.

Hello September :)

My idle Life or Not..

Living on day to day basis?  What say you? Forget about the past and stop worrying about the future. Just live in present. Do things that makes you happy today and not thinking about tomorrow.

Carpe diem, seize the day - they said. Me, trying to make use of my day to day life to the fullest. Not investing my hope for the future. Not adding more liability ahead.  I live today.

Despite the struggle I'm facing on work related matter, i reminded myself to be grateful every day. I have a place to sleep and family and friends to cherish.

It less than perfect,  but it's enough.

Hari esok siapa yang tahu.

Thank You. Alhamdulillah.

I'm struggling but...

it's okay because it is part of my job. I get paid for this. To struggle and to get things done properly. 

I did not get paid to have fun time or happy hour at the playground.

Workplace are meant to be stressful and demanding. Your patience will be tested, your knowledge and leadership skill will be challenged and deliverables are the result of your competency.

One need to be courteous and have high common sense in handling all this. Unfortunately, it cannot be teach nor to be told. You need to have your own radar to guide you. Know your line, so that you will not cross it.

It just difficult for me to digest when people expect workplace is a playground, a place to play candy crush.

Good night peeps. Hope I have more time to write :)

Bali: Going Down.. and Loving it :)

YEAY! after donkey years, I did it and I'm glad + happy. Nasib baik a friend of mine was persistently pujuk me to do this. As always, I'm reluctant and hesistate to dive. I don't think i can do it anymore. For me, I had already say goodbye to diving.

That morning, we woke up late. We thought Bali is one hour behind as per pilot announcement in the plane. When I woke up, I realised the room alarm clock is 6.40 am as per my watch. Hah! there is no time difference lah. Secepat kilat mandi and packed my stuff. Sempat breakfast and met the driver at 7.30 am.

I was like not wanting think of anything. Just go with the flow. Signed the release liability form, make payment and heading to the gear centre for equipment.

Our dive master, Ketut Sila seems okay. Cool and patience. We go through briefing, searching for the smallest size for BCD and fin available and then hop on to the boat. I felt such relief seeing only us on the boat. All our equipment has been transffered to the boat (inclusive the heavy tank and weight). All we need to do is to carry ourselves :D

Before

Ketut gives short briefing on the eqipment and about 10 minutes, we arrived. Gear up ourselves, put on the regulator and finally back roll entry to the water. Perhaps 3 weights are to heavy or maybe I deflate too fast, I decend in few seconds... haha.. I felt more okay inside the water. Nasib baik boleh equalise eventhough my nose was stuffy and blocked due to flu.

Visibility not too good but  we saw alot of stuff. Ketut was like looking here and there. He's good and both of us behave. Trying to control our breathe and not panicking. We saw lion fish, clown fish, puffer fish, boxer fish, star fish and many other interesting fishes that I dont know the name. There is one fish that camouflage himself well with the sand but Ketut was able to spot it. The usual yellow blue stripe fish and the loooong blue colour fish.

After .. see the side effect on my face :)

When my air almost to 100, I was like... bila nak naik ni. Dah terasa lama. Hehe.. I'm not obssed with diving, only for fun weh. Somehow, few minutes after that Ketut signal we are going up. OOOh... I had a great time. I'm happy. Gives extra tips to Ketut so that he is happy too :) On the boat heading back, Ketut told me diving is like cycling. You will never forget how. Hmm...but I don't know how to cycle :)

Done with diving, rest a bit and heading to Levender Spa for massage. Two hours seems so fast. The flower bath was the highlight. Nice :)

Halal food was easy eventhough 95% of bali is Hindu. Nasi Padang was our favourite. Hari-hari makan nasi padang tanpa jemu.

Decided to see Kechak dance again. This time indoor style at Uluwattu. Ok la... but I fall asleep few times actually heh. At the art market, I bought few painting. They're too good not to buy. You will never get this cheap and super many choices other than Bali. They're art people. They paint, they carve the stone and wood, they design the silver and they canting batik. Hebat.

I bought the pink tulip painting

On the other note, 

Perhaps, diving is like love. You will never forget how to love someone. You just need the right person to carry you through.

Thank you Bali, I may come back again :)

Bali: Watching the Sun Up and Down

4 to 6 July 2013

Sunrise @ Sanur Beach

I was like berlari lari from the hotel to take the photos, almost missed it :)  The boat added some character to the images. Interesting kan.. Bali boats.

I lef the boats :)

Spot the many tanks for divers

our beach front hotel, nice

Giant Chess

Sunset @ Kuta Beach

Before heading to the airport, took some time to Kuta beach. Love watching the sunset with all sorts of strangers all over the world. Kuta Beach is overrated, I think.

BTW, these days, I took all photos using camera phone. Me lazy to carry the real camera. My Notes II good enough to save the memories. Its like having digital album on my phone. All my travel photos has its own album. I carry every day :)

Panoramic View of Kuta Beach

Me watching You

Good Bye Kuta, till we meet again.

ME: Work In Progress :)

12 to 26 June 2013

I intend to revisit my basic. It’s kind of restructuring myself by learning and practicing the fundamental. Perhaps I have to start back with the kindergarten school where all the essential elements are being taught. I’m turning backwards and its okay :)

Honestly, I do feel very inferior not covering my head but I believe everyone has different paths to finding religion and it is even more beautiful when someone wears it because they understand why they have to and they are sincere in doing so.

And maybe you cover your head first, then you work on the rest. Don’t look down on others who work on their prayers, their souls first, then do the last step in covering their heads. We are all on the way there. Kan.

I’m work in progress. Trying to take care of my heart, nawaitu, words, intention, action and everything. 

Thank you Allah, for accepting me as your guest. I'm grateful and blessed.

My Brother's Keeper

The Movie

The book

Spending my time with my nephews and nieces over the weekend remind me of this movie which an adaptation from a book by Jodi Picoult. I didnt read the book but I watched the movie, as such i can't compare which is better. But I just can't stop crying while watching the movie. It was few years back and the movie was realeased in 2009. They said that the endings of the two creations are completely different. In the movie Kate dies peacefully just like she wants too, because Anna does not donate the kidney she is in need of.

These two boys are buddy. They eat, sleep, talk, play watch tv, read books and fight together. They love and hate each other. Almost  every morning, Hariz wakes his brother up to go to school. Sometimes they bath together. He sends his brother to school every day. Sebelum turun kereta, Hariz will salam, hug and say goodbye to his brother.

Hariz in arabic means keeper or pemelihara. Its a big name, carrying his parent's hope and love. This year, he will be three years old. He is adorable as ever. My darling sweetheart. Somehow his warm personality has light up everone's heart.

Haziq, a special boy with mild autism syndrom . He will be five yesrs old this year. A bit of challenge but since he has Hariz, the learning process is more faster. They copy cat each other. He learn how to communicte, have eye contact and sharing.

I love both of them. I hope and pray that Hariz will always be there and be kind to Haziq. The time will come when Hariz IQ and EQ exceeds Haziq capability. I hope he remember that they're buddy and he is his brother's keeper. Amin.