The Unknown

Last few days when I had my lunch at the arab cafe, the TV showed Jason Mraz video clip - I'm Yours. At that moment I really felt it. I miss traveling so much. Yep, I mean so much.. sangat-sangat.

I tried to figure out what is it that i really miss? There's thousand of things to complain about when I travel. Macam-macam. The expensive ticket, the loong hours in bus or plane, the food, the cleanliness, the people (yang menipu pun byk juga), sakit kepala, lack of sleep, language, bad weather, moody and fussy partner (termasuklah bila ada yang cancel last minute) etc. Ini belum lagi pre arrangement for travel - to work out the budget, to find partner, suitable travel date, cheapest flight, hotel and places to visit. Di tambah lagi dengan stress kerja and applying for leave. Aduh.

But, most of all - I'm afraid of getting lost. I get terrified. I get an instant panic and anxiety attack.To make thing worst - I have very bad sense of direction. Betul.

But that doesn't stop me.

It reminded me of a conversation that I had many years back. I told him that I always have this fear around me. Fear of what? I don't know. But I always surrounded  by fear. I always have what if negative attitude - What if something bad happen to me. The fear of the Unknown.

You do not travel if you are afraid of the unknown, you travel for the unknown, that reveals you with yourself. - Anonymous

That is what travel allows me to do and somehow it change me, for good i hope :} I learned new things every single day when i travel.

Btw, I saw this video clip yesterday @ MTV while waiting my car to be service.Oh he changed and I give up to understand what the clip is all about :) but the song is beautiful.