Charging my Hope

So many things  had happened and I miss blogging. I have been spending most of my time at the office. How cool is that kan :p  Not a day of leave taken this month and most all of my weekends I spent it for work. Such dedication, such passion, such... zzZzZz...

I need to jot down few things that had happened this month as a note to myself.

1. My so called mentor passed away. He has been sick for quite some times. I'm glad our path crossed and I'm honoured knowing someone like you. A great leader with a beautiful heart. Always giving, always sharing. Thank you sir. You have shown me that no act of kindness is ever wasted. Al-Fatehah.

2. One of my bff in trouble. Not her fault but as a family, you need to handle the shit. I think about it so hard as what she had requested is not an easy thing to be done. Make a risky decision and decided to lend her my hand. I just cant let her down and do nothing, if something bad happen to her and the family, I'm sure I will regret it. I understand the risk and I knew this is my best effort therefore the end result - saya redha. Saya mahu jadi kawan semasa susah.

3. Another bff in a difficult situation. Her baby sick, coma for more than three weeks now. Visiting her in the hospital, my heart bleed. I respect her - for being strong and not giving up hope. Always there for her baby. and keep on trying. There was a moment that I felt like I wanted to cry, but I did not. She told me that the only best friend she has now is her baby. I understand her completely.

4. Charity oh Charity. Don't be a giver when you are in doubt. Be a giver when you know everything will be a complete free of charge. No expectation, no terms and conditions and zero return. With super duper heavy heart, I visited their home of love. I requested them to return back. Without hesitation, without excuses, they have agreed - even though they do not have any clue how to make it happen. I learned my lesson the hard way. Partly it was my mistake too.

5. Ex-officemate passed away. Al - Fatehah.

6. When both of parents are sick, I know its tough. Double it. Hang in there my friend. Be strong. Somehow it reminds me of the old saying “This too shall pass” - Every situation is temporary, good or bad.

7. A feedback from an old friend during an early morning breakfast : I'm heartless. Having so much things on my shoulder turns me into robot. I just want to get things done. Anything in between - doesn't really matters. It's the result that counts.

I'm not Heartless. I just learned to use my Heart Less. - anynomous

Maybe its Black April. Good Night. Sleep well. Tomorrow, we shall say Good Morning to Ms May :)