I would ponder and tell them no.
And they’d ask me why.
And I’d always say: “I’m enjoying my single life.”
If I were to be honest, I would have said: “I don’t know why.” And that’d be the truth.
I admit that I can fancy people easily. But I don’t easily fall in love. Liking someone, is not loving someone. It’s just not the same.
What do I look for in a guy? They would ask. Questions, questions…
Well, fundamentally, I just want someone who would want to be part of my world, I guess. My strange and peculiar world. Someone who can make me wants to be part of his world too. It’s about sharing not owning... (i know i sound absurd)Now I’m scared. I’ve always been scared. And I’m sick of that.
“Scared of what?” You ask.
I’m scared of being hurt once more. Scared that I’m being hurt by something that was actually never meant to be. Scared of the one I might fall for, and end up being disappointed. I’m scared that all I thought to be true……were just mere lies…
I’m scared of my imagination, for it can run so wild beyond your imagination.
If that last truth was true…then above all…I fear that he stopped loving me, because of a stupid misunderstanding, a stupid mistake, and because…because… arghhhh
2 comments:
fish there is no insurance for u being loved forever and there is none for u to love someone forever too. life is a gamble with risks..... so decide your game then!!how sure r u that u can love someone forever too??to me love is a gamble hehehe read your cards and close your eyes and jump and may god bliss u that is!!
As muslim, have fate, lot of doa & prayers. Pray for the best. Never had a girl friends before too (I know it's an akward comparison) but hey, life, death and true love is all up to Allah. We all make mistake so u don't have to be afraid to make one.
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