Spring Cleaning

I have been doing spring cleaning for weeks.. sikit demi sikit.. room by room. I found plenty of unwanted stuff. Things that I can just throw away. Also, it's like walking down to a memory lane. I saw my old picture, my old clothes and  my old journals (dulu belum ada blog). It's seems easier now to throw it away. I don't think much.. to let it go. To let go my past. My shoulder seems lighter. I can sense some space. Pelik kan... it's just throwing some old stuff and it gives me sense of relief. Perhaps somehow it's a spring cleaning my emotions!

Some stuff that I found and worth to post:

Me, when i'm 12 years old :)

Me and the evidence of lost in the sea

You Get What You Give

Is Fate getting what you deserve, or deserving what you get?

I have been thinking. Thinking about what to write. But somehow my thoughts accumulated in B drive.. my Brain. 

1. A friend of mine lost his job. A job that envy by many. He said, he has done terrible things to people and unproud of what he has become. At times, he purposely made things difficult to people around him. On his last negotiation of employment, i suggested him to asked one simple question to his former boss - Is there anything else I can do to fix this? This was his last card, the only card left.

2. I met with an accident the other week. I didn't saw this boy in his motorcycle while entering the left lane. He was like doing a summersault when his motorcycle hit my bumper. I was extremely nervous and scared. Too much focusing on the boy, I forgot to checked my own car until the boy told me that my car tyre punctured. It was almost 9.00 pm. I do not know who to call and what to do. While my mind contemplating, a car stopped and help out. They changed my car tyre and fix the motorcycle. We exchange phone number and I gave some cash and we go home. The next day, the parents called and after some thoughts, we decided not to make a police report and I paid for motorcycle repair work. No drama. 

3. Its time for e-filing. As usual I knew this person will call me and asked the same question.. How to fill up the online form? I was like....$%@&*  I told myself to manage my expectation. Everybody is different. I can't expect people are like me! I need to learn this - expect Nothing and Appreciate everything. I reminded myself - this is someone that need help and asking for help. What if I'm at his situation?

4. This guy (a contractor) who was introduced by a friend went missing in the middle of repair work @ my house. I tried to called and whatapps him many times... but he just disappeared.  I like him because he is honest, I think. Not like other contractor that I have been dealing with. After almost a month, he's back in the radar. I told him that I'm not angry (as I believe he has some stuff he needs to handle at that time). I just said that going forward, this is what he needs to do. He then completed the repair work and insisted me not to pay any single cents.

End...

it feels good to be Home

early.

It will be just perfect if i have a cozy lazy chair to rest and a cup of flat white.

Hmmmmm.....

Today, i just want to say Alhamdulillah :)

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I'm 6 months Old

How time flies kan. I'm unsure if i can see myself for many years here but i always try to be hopeful that on difficult time, God will ease my days.

Since there was no probation period, i can't gauge, how was my performance in these six months. All i can say is that i have tried my best. Since my job is a mixture of everthing.. i don't think i excel in everthing. Honestly, i'm struggling  in few area. But i have to be self sufficient.

I worry too much and it's slowly and quietly eating my soul. I reminded myself again and again to stop worrying as it does not give any good in return.. but my mind is restless.

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