Sappy Day

It has been a sappy day from the very beginning.  I have a dream. I lost my front teeth. Can't really remember the details but i felt real. No blood, no pain or what so ever and i was facing the mirror. Terbangun. Its already Subuh, around 6.30 am. Bangkit terus.

Then, while waiting for my banking matters being process, melepak di mamak cafe sipping my teh tarik while watching the news on Awani on MH370.

Perhaps couple with the hardship that i have been enduring for few mths now, the short video clip on the passanger list of MH370,  brought tears to my eyes.

My heart feels heavy. My mind is everywhere.  Merata-rata.

In an ideal business world, of course I should be able to handle the situations better - but, then again, in an ideal business world those situations do not exist at all.

Sigh.

Try hard to keep myself together.

Stumble upon this beautiful video, explaining on Musibah. Good or bad.. everything is with permission of Allah. MashaAllah.

Kontang sudah, Muncul Hujan

This is how bad it was last week. Its like going thru rubber estate where the leaves starts falling down non stop. Looks like the foreign worker has lots of work to be done.

These days, my patience was tested many many times. I'm turning into blue monster easily. Then i realised a short walk under the humid weather is not bad at all. So, the everyday walk to the bank or food court plus a cup of teh tarik once a while give me a window time to breathe. Having my lunch in food court instead of going out saves me a lot of time and energy too, despite the boring food. 

Dealing with human being in these trying times somehow has given me another perspective and view. About myself and other people. Its true when they said - You Can Tell the Size of a Man by the Size Of Things that Bother him. If petty things really bother you, consumed most your time, drained your energy and perhaps the thing you talk about everday.... be worried, be extremely worried. It shows the real you, who you are.

Now the rain has come, Alhamdulillah. 

I have a Dream

that i was on holiday somewhere in an island far far away. It was hot and sunny but the sound of waving ocean calms me down. Nothing much happened as i was just lepaking. Hmmm...  with the three months diet plan, cash is tight. But I really, badly need to go somewhere.

I envy those who can really lepak in an island for many days. I think I can't but why not kan I challenge myself. Perhaps island in Thailand is cheaper than here in Malaysia. I can stretch my budget for a longer period. As at to date, I only took one day of annual leave.... so spending one week for a beach holidays seems doable. 

 Oh well... meanwhile i can just continue surfing the net :(

DDP: am I on TRACK?

HEALTHDiet

Have been using for Fitbit for one month now and below is the result so far..

1. Steps

Highest Steps

Lowest Steps

2. Distance

Longest distance

3. Calories Burned

nothing to shout

Overview


4. Sleep

Tidur.. memang efficient :D

 Overview

 Not an impressive result. Thought that if i achieved 10k steps, I must be active :( Oh...

Madness March

1. turning into MONSTER

Work seems playing with my patience and slowly i can feel myself turning into monster. Pitty to my team member. They have to endure with my unpleasant attitude of not having the patience.  All i know is i'm about to hit the wall. Sigh..

2. MOTIVATION... what?

I have difficulties to wake up in the morning. I don't feel like going to the office. It feels like dragging my feet while my mind is elsewhere. Dolce Gusto coffee in the morning doesn't give me the morning fix or booster anymore. Being the first to enter the room and the last to close the door feels like a very looooong day.

3. I'm MUMBLINGs

because I'm Too Tired To Talk. So i keep it to myself. Talking is Tiring.  Some people release their stress by talking. Not me. I'm too tired to talk until to a point that i expect the people around me and the people i work with can understand me without explaining, sharing and giving instruction. Hah! Tak masuk akal kan. 

4. MISSING diver and MH370

On Friday night sampai kampung, lil brother shared a story about Japanese diver missing in Bali. She has been rescued after 3 days in the open sea drifted towards Lombok. Reminded me of my own story. 

Will not further elaborate on this as i'm not the expert. I feel grateful to be found and saved after seven hours drifting in the open sea. At that moment, seven hours felt like seven thousand years. I can't imagine how it feels.. after five days of searching with 39 aircraft and 42 ships.  Lets continue sending our doa. 

Watching this video brings tears to my heart.

"Malaysian Airlines Flight MH370, the air traffic control radar hopes to see you.

If you can hear this, please maintain your current altitude, and proceed directly to your destination.

Know that we have applied for a direct route for you, and other kind-hearted flights will accommodate you by giving way to you. Everyone is willing to let you be the first to land. 

The weather for your route is currently sunny and cloudless, with the air temperature at your destination Beijing being 5 degrees, a little cold, so dress warmly when disembarking.

Remember to hug the friends and family who have come to pick you up, because they love you very much. Good day."

Sudah hampir 3 pagi. Lelap lah wahai mata.

Killing me Softly

with her words...